And I'm really just not sure whether or not I'm happy or sad,
I'm just wondering how I can feel so hopeful,
When everything is so helpless.
But really,
who does know?
(I JUST FUCKING NEED SOMEBODY TO HELP ME MAKE SENSE OF IT ALL.)
And I don't understand why my head
is so full of words when I wake up,
and I wish one day I could just sit and write them all down,
because then maybe I could make sense of them,
and it all,
but instead,
I have to get ready for school.
('the teachers tie us to our chairs and pour worlds into our ears')
I'm so tired and I keep getting sick and it's all so exhausting,
(but sometimes I'm the happiest I've been in ages.)
You took my breath away,
and at the time,
I sort of loved you for it,
but now,
I REALLY NEED IT BACK
SO I CAN LEARN TO BREATHE AGAIN.
I'm sorry everybody,
That I am making no sense
and
My words are so ugly.
My mind is in a muddle at the moment,
And I'm sick
And behind at school.
But I'll be okay,
I know I will.
'AND SUDDENLY I'M CHOKING ON AIR THAT DOESN'T EXIST.'
xoxo Camelgirl
Keep smiling. Your words are beautiful
ReplyDeleteThis is my favorite post of yours. :)
ReplyDeleteYou're making sense to me..there will always be someone in your life that understands...
you just have to find them.
xx,
~Abby~
your writing is beautiful and the pictures perfect, but i hope your ok. :(
ReplyDelete"she said she normally cried at least once a day, not because she was sad, but because the world was so beautiful and life was so short"
xoxo
your writing is outstanding.!
ReplyDeleteso amazing.
*& your blog is ever so lovely also deary(:
-XoXO
Brooklynn
I loved the OC picture.
ReplyDeleteYour words seem lovely, but confused to me.
and I'm still waiting for that amazing moment to hit me. So I can breathe again, and pay attention to the person sitting next to me.
Rather then who used to be.
OH OH OH I'm here. Call me baby ;) AA (anytime anyplace). Love the pics in this post to absolute max.
ReplyDeleteCat xx
Your words are as beautiful as ever and make perfect sense. Get hold of the happiness and hope and forget the sadness. Life is too short for that ( I know its hard).
ReplyDeleteI lobe love love the last two pictures
xx
Kipa
You are very talented. I hope writing is a release for you and a means to let go and not just a reminder of the pain. I have had it be both for me in the past.
ReplyDeleteyour write beautifully,keep writing lovely <3
ReplyDeleteI know that you can't see past these confused and messed up feelings right now,but they will pass :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for putting my feelings I couldn't describe into words I could clearly interpret :) In other words,I've been going through that too,now I might just be close to the other side :)
Oh wow, funny how sometimes people can feel exactly the same way I do.
ReplyDeleteYour words aren't ugly. They're beautiful. Everything will be okay darling.
I love how you're so up and down, coz it's how I am half the time.
ReplyDeleteso so so so amazing, truly.
xx scarzz
Gosh, I love this.
ReplyDeleteI need to make sense of something, anything,
because I will fall apart any moment now.
Be strong; you are beautiful.
I hope everything works out very soon!
♥