Things to look forward to after exams:

*never having to worry about vce again
*formal
*schoolies (...debatable...)
*the beach
*staying up as late as I want
*tumblr
*all the tv shows I will be able to watch
*all the books I will be able to read
*top 500 movies ever with Jokerman
*sims with Dandy
*Christmas
*Europe
*freedom

Not long now... wish me luck!

xoxo Camelgirl

Things that make up my daily happiness:

*the smell of pink grapefruit in the shower

*random cute texts from Erimentha
*good hair days

*dreaming about future Europe adventures

*the care I see our tutor group teacher actually has for us

*planning a costume for Moony's party

(to go as Princess Peach or a flapper girl?)

*finding things to pin on my corkboard

*mix tapes and letters from Padfoot

*watching my mother find such joy in small things like dance and French classes

*in just over three months there will be no more school stress

xoxo Camelgirl

Everything is too fucking shit to comprehend and I just can't wait until year twelve is over except that will mean it is time to leave all my friends and so yes, I can wait. I'm drowning in an ocean of worries and if I ever get out it'll only be to meet the scorching sun and it's own rays of despair.

If I can't make myself happy, what chance do I have of making you any happier?
I'm sorry. I love you. I'm sorry I love you.

xoxo Camelgirl

Failure.

I put a ninety on my wall and it's meant to motivate me but it's just reminding me of everything that I've done wrong.

xoxo Camelgirl