listology

First times in 2012:

• love
• sex
• drugs

Goals reached in 2012:

• graduated high school
• got an atar of over 92
• moved to Switzerland

Reasons why I'm better off without him:

• he couldn't be happy for me
• he hit me
• he didn't really appreciate me until he didn't have me anymore

Things I want to experience before I die:

• a white christmas
• dreaming in another language
• giving birth
• setting foot on all seven continents

Nationalities I have kissed:

• Australian
• Canadian
• English
• Swiss
• Italian

Things I miss:

• late night movies with Jokerman
• summer fruit
• emails from Z
• my dog
• working/studying

xoxo Camelgirl

Fuck.

I've messed everything up just like I always do so it's time to make some important decisions that are way beyond my tiny, immature brain.

In a haze of drunkenness and anger, and then suddenly their lips are on yours and it's exactly what you'd given up on trying to prove to yourself so you hesitate and by then it's too late. It's all wrong but your mind isn't whole enough to stop. You just want to feel alive again, so you let your body sink into theirs.

Wrong wrong wrong. When does something stop being wrong and start being right?

I'm trying to get my breath back but it's always slightly out of my grasp. I thought I was getting better but I'm just as awful as I've always been.

I might have thought this would happen to me but I never thought I'd be the one doing it.



And now I have no choice but to leave. 

xoxo Camelgirl