Sunday, December 6, 2009

4 days

I'm leaving you,
I'm not sure if that`s what I should do,
It hurts so bad,
I'm wanting you but cant go back
What should I have done?
Oh well, too late now.

It changed everything.

And I got what I hoped for,
but it isn't,
it's wrong,
is it worse?
I can't even tell.

Every so often we long to steal,
To the land of what might have been,
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel,
When reality sets back in

 My mind is a muddle,
and it's late,
which disarrays it even more.
My thoughts don't fit together,
it's as if a piece is missing,
but I can't figure out what it is.
You are my brain's sieve.

What is it that gives you the power,
to perfect my days,
but also to make me,
the loneliest girl,
in a world that doesn't matter?

You blew me a kiss,
and I wished you were the right person,
but you're not.

Have you ever tried vegan egg nog?
Have you ever given a boy named Gerard your love child, an egg named Geraldine Jemimah Greg Jesus Hook, for their birthday, and had them reject it?

I really hope that my idea of love exists.

I was young and caught in the crowd

I didn't know then what I know now

I was dumb, and I was proud

And I'm sorry

If I could go back do it again

I'd be someone you could call friend

Please please believe that I'm sorry

My brain is exhausted and full of lyrics and my lines for my performance things I need to do before Vanuatu and I have no time to relax.


Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

Where am I?
Floating down a stream, staring up at the sky,
unsure of where you're headed,
but without a care in the world.

I wish.

(60 planes to go)

A dream is a wish your heart makes,
when it's fast asleep.

I dreamt of you.


xoxo Camelgirl


  1. i love kate miller-heidke. she rocks ma socks. :)

    dont worry , everythign will be alright.

    catherine, xox.

  2. (L) thinking of you.

    great post (very long, but all the pictures rocked so it totally worked out =P) hahaha

    xo have a good holiday!

  3. I lo-o-ove this post. SEE YOU ON WED!!
    Cat xx

  4. loved it too, it's long, but with a lot of great pics! kinda heavy though... sounds so sad!



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